Saturday, November 19, 2005

Work... all pretty much know I hate my job. I mean don't get me wrong, the pay is decent, I'm good at what I do, and I do take pride in my work...having said that...I hate my job. Ever since Aidan was born I've hated it even more, it was very hard to come back after being off with the baby for 4 months when he was born. I definitly had seperation anxiety. Well, yesterday Aidan made it very hard for both Ian and I to leave for work. He basically had a meltdown. Tons of tears and lots of clinging and saying he didn't want us to go to work, that he wanted us to stay and play with him. Well let me tell you our hearts just broke, he was sooooooooo pitiful. We were a hair away from calling off, I mean he was just that upset. We finally managed to calm him down and got him dropped off at Nana's house. I was a wreck all day becuase of this. I mean he'll be three in a few weeks and he's very smart but I wouldn't think that he would understand going to work and making money. But he said I don't want you to go to work, we don't need any money. Good Lord. When we were trying to get him down for bed last night it was more of the same, I'm not sure what is triggering this, I suppose he could be sensing the tension we've got about work because of some changes that are going to be made, I'm not sure. I just hope this doesn't become a daily occurence, I don't think I could handle it. We sure do love our little guy but the hard part about being an adult is having to provide, no job no money, no food no house no anything. sigh. We shall hope for the best. Maybe this will pass.

1 comment:

Awesome Abby said...

Awwww, Fe, my heart breaks for you. I couldn't imagine leaving after a day like that. Who knows what triggered it, or if it will continue? I'm glad that he has to stay with Nana and not a babysitter or daycare, as that makes it easier for all three of you, even if you don't realize it. I'll be saying some prayers for both of you and your little guy...keep me posted.